Another fiction post everyone. Same character as before.
I lay on the chaise in my long formal dress I wore to a few events in the late '20s. I have no shame in wearing classics again. I've been certain to keep my clothing classic so that I can look regal for decades rather than mere months. Also shopping for clothing at night was harder to do when I first started out as a kindred. It was easier to be practical, short of tricking a designer into your orchestra.
Above me I watch molecules bond to each other in a rhythm, reminding me of the Rites of Spring. I remember when modern dance was new and I saw a performance, but dance never truly entertained me. I preferred the symphony. I've kept the song in symphony, performed by the atoms that pair off. They light up above in a soft light. I am keen and comfortable.
The bonds lose their defining lines, and the lights begin to stay up, and are bright gold like incandescents. The chaise is sinking into grass, yellow blades dimmed by nightfall. I look down and the dress... is no longer there. I am clothed into something I can only describe to civilized individuals as a hand-sewn sack. In the old standards this was beauty. In the current standard it feels like a costume. I'm itchy.
I sit up. In front of me is a fire subsisting on nothing, lighting up the field as if it's mid afternoon. I back away before standing up. This is rare. This small remembrance comes twice a decade, not in a true pattern. I am no longer startled by it. I merely hate that I must waste my time with it.
In the corner of my eyes I sense the shadows that sometimes linger. I never truly catch them in my sight in front of me, so I do not try to catch them. They're short, slight dark figures that just stand and stare back at me. As I walk to the fire they follow me, still in the edges of my sight. If they're not going to leave, I'll keep them at that difference.
Just by walking to the fire, it shrinks rapidly, until it is the size of a dime when I'm only a couple feet away from it. I grin.
"Merely an exothermic process."
"Precisely," I hear Abel confirm. He doesn't show, he is only heard. "One that is hard to control, unfortunately, and can damage, but nothing unknown."
There is a part of me that wishes to touch it. I don't wish to be used to that fantasy. It won't be useful after my time in eclipse.
Suddenly the sky crashes around, pushing me on my back again. I find myself in the long black dress I began my eclipse in, the irises and roses surrounding me. the room is dimly lit. I realize I can blink at will and the image stays the same.
Leaning over me is Lady Quinn, the dips and raises on the side of her face highlighted by the lighting. She is dressed in a suit, but her hair is not pulled back. I lick my lips and raise my brow.
"I apologize, Lady Quinn. It is necessary."
I pull my shoulders back into the silk covered pillows I rest on. "Understood. Is it time?"
"This is... early, but brief."
"It is acceptable. We are up to date on events?"
"There is a report on changes that will be pertinent for this brief summit."
"That is understood." I pause. "We still serve at the pleasure of the Prince?"
She cocks her head to the side. "Of course."
In relief I close my eyes. "Then this will pass quickly."
August 8, 2014
July 21, 2014
Fiction: As Lady Quinn Rests...
Yes it has been quite some time since I paid attention to this blog. I'm trying to get back to my old writing habits, so while I try that please try to enjoy this fictional piece that is of on of my LARP characters. P.S. if you're still reading after 8 months of no updates, thank you, I really appreciate it.
"Well please, Miss Moreaux, please show us the savage dance that will bring your land the rain!"
A scene I have repeated multiple times. Partially for my amusement, partially to make it right. I smirk to Lady Tatar, in her blue dress and dripping jewels. Abel told me she only recently became a lady, and many believe she didn't deserve it.
This time around, I don't just stand there politely. Survival in this space is no longer an issue. I have survived. This time, I respond with a smirk and I approach her slowly, my low heels clicking and my stride steady. I put a hand on her hip and take her free arm up, and as her amazement manifests on her face I waltz with her in front of everyone at the gathering that night. Suddenly I hear a Strauss movement swell around us, and all of the people around us laugh in amazement.
This time the victory dance only lasts a moment before I become a fluid body floating down to the small lab I shared with Abel over a century ago, when we settled in the city. Before the fire.
He grins at me. "You have too much fun with this Lady S--"
Even in this deep rest I bring up a finger and raise my brow. "Excuse me, Baron Abel."
He nods as I land to the floor. "You are excused, Lady Quinn. Though I should apologize. I am glad you have found a way."
I try not to remind myself that I merely imagined that. The walls turn into enlarged, flat representations of some of my favorite compounds--lithium aluminium hydride, psilocybin, clove oil--which glow and give some needed light to the scene. I see Abel as I last saw him, in his jacket, slacks and boots before he ran into our haven and I could not run after him. I'm currently in the long dress and understated gold jewelry that I entered my rest in.
I look to the table to see words intermingle in the flasks and the tubes, bubbling in the beaked patiently waiting me to write down a result. But it's not time for me to, so I ignore it. "I am glad as well. Our work has helped me greatly."
"I'm glad I picked you well. Kindred don't like to admit that lineage is important sometimes, but I found it vital. If I hadn't picked you..."
"Abel, I'm not certain if you are my ego or not."
"Can I be?"
"I don't know, I'd ask Freud."
Suddenly a little rustling as the compounds shift slightly and change color--a light purple. It causes Abel to look ghostly. I feel a grin grow not only in my dream, but just softly as I rest.
"What could it be, Lady Quinn?"
"They've changed the flora around me. I'm assuming lilacs. That's a rarity."
I let Abel fade, and I float back onto a chaise in a silk sheath dress, my hair down. I lift my feet up and wait to see if it is Lord or Lady Quinn who will be reading me new poetry this evening. I feel lucky that I occasionally can even hear it.
Though part of me wishes they'd ghoul someone who was a francophone native. However, I'm not in a position to complain, so I lie. And I wait. And I enjoy.
"Well please, Miss Moreaux, please show us the savage dance that will bring your land the rain!"
A scene I have repeated multiple times. Partially for my amusement, partially to make it right. I smirk to Lady Tatar, in her blue dress and dripping jewels. Abel told me she only recently became a lady, and many believe she didn't deserve it.
This time around, I don't just stand there politely. Survival in this space is no longer an issue. I have survived. This time, I respond with a smirk and I approach her slowly, my low heels clicking and my stride steady. I put a hand on her hip and take her free arm up, and as her amazement manifests on her face I waltz with her in front of everyone at the gathering that night. Suddenly I hear a Strauss movement swell around us, and all of the people around us laugh in amazement.
This time the victory dance only lasts a moment before I become a fluid body floating down to the small lab I shared with Abel over a century ago, when we settled in the city. Before the fire.
He grins at me. "You have too much fun with this Lady S--"
Even in this deep rest I bring up a finger and raise my brow. "Excuse me, Baron Abel."
He nods as I land to the floor. "You are excused, Lady Quinn. Though I should apologize. I am glad you have found a way."
I try not to remind myself that I merely imagined that. The walls turn into enlarged, flat representations of some of my favorite compounds--lithium aluminium hydride, psilocybin, clove oil--which glow and give some needed light to the scene. I see Abel as I last saw him, in his jacket, slacks and boots before he ran into our haven and I could not run after him. I'm currently in the long dress and understated gold jewelry that I entered my rest in.
I look to the table to see words intermingle in the flasks and the tubes, bubbling in the beaked patiently waiting me to write down a result. But it's not time for me to, so I ignore it. "I am glad as well. Our work has helped me greatly."
"I'm glad I picked you well. Kindred don't like to admit that lineage is important sometimes, but I found it vital. If I hadn't picked you..."
"Abel, I'm not certain if you are my ego or not."
"Can I be?"
"I don't know, I'd ask Freud."
Suddenly a little rustling as the compounds shift slightly and change color--a light purple. It causes Abel to look ghostly. I feel a grin grow not only in my dream, but just softly as I rest.
"What could it be, Lady Quinn?"
"They've changed the flora around me. I'm assuming lilacs. That's a rarity."
I let Abel fade, and I float back onto a chaise in a silk sheath dress, my hair down. I lift my feet up and wait to see if it is Lord or Lady Quinn who will be reading me new poetry this evening. I feel lucky that I occasionally can even hear it.
Though part of me wishes they'd ghoul someone who was a francophone native. However, I'm not in a position to complain, so I lie. And I wait. And I enjoy.
October 14, 2013
Credentials, respect, and STEM fields diversity: How I relate to DNLee
I just read about what happened to DNLee, a blogger for Scientific American. Have you not heard what happened to her? Well you can read about it here on her blog. There's also a decent rundown of the incident on Buzzfeed. The short of it is that a gentleman for a not so well known science blog asked DNLee to write pro-bono for his website. She politely declined and the response attacked her profession, background and gender all in one horrible sentence: Are you an urban scientist or an urban whore?
Quick list of how ridiculous this response is:
1) It's super personal for someone who never met this person
2) It's racist and sexist in one fell swoop
3) It's certainly not professional
4) It ruins any chance of potentially changing a potential blogger's mind in the future
DNLee actually did a pretty good response about not only why she declined the proposal sent to her and how she felt about the response to her:
I am sure there are plenty of people who can relate to the feelings expressed in the video. The idea that one should feel "lucky" to share their expertise they've worked hard for and should just share their talents for free. It can happen because you're a minority, or a woman, or even because you're education is considered "below par" for your field despite many proven accomplishments. Or sometimes you just deal with someone who's being a complete jerk.
DNLee makes some good points. Don't settle because someone decides you should. Figure out what your baselines are for your work. Stick to them.
But she shares a struggle that happens all the time for people in many science fields, and again in minority groups. Although we may like to believe there is, in America there is not a lot of varied representation of people in STEM careers. Most of them are white, most of them are men, and there is a lot of overlap with those two groups. On top of that there is a lot of the public who will freak out if it turns out that it isn't the atypical person who's actually knowledgeable, let alone interested, in anything scientific or mathematical. Does anyone else remember when the internet exploded because it found out the person who runs the I Fucking Love Science page on Facebook is a woman? I do mean people freaked out. Was it the combo of her being a woman who didn't mind cursing on the internet who also really fucking loves science? I don't know but I remember being ashamed not only that people were reacting poorly to it, but that I was surprised a woman ran the site. What the hell was wrong with my head that I assumed that Facebook page was run by a man?
It's a societal thing, and it's a societal thing that is due to get in the way of a better future. We need to have people invest in science, be interested in every scientific field, to help make the future fantastic. We can't be discouraging anyone from the field. For every DNLee who knows her worth, there are a ton more people who've been wrongfully turned away from a field because someone thought they didn't "fit the profile".
Did I ever mention to you guys that ever since junior high, when a teach in eight grade told me I never needed math again, I sabotage myself in my math skill all through college? Those little things make a difference throughout life. I'm not going to make excuses, and I am glad there was a a professor at college that pointed out how ridiculous that whole premise was and did his best to smack me out of it. P.S., random shout out to Robert Rebelein, who despite his not very well updated website was possibly one of the best professors I had the pleasure of working with in my undergraduate career. He treated me like an adult before I realized that's how I should be treated. He let me know if I wanted to be an economist, I could be despite getting a C in my first economics class. I wish I had more people earlier in my life (outside my awesome parents) that told me I could do whatever the hell I wanted with hard work. That I could do math--it wasn't just a guy skill or "not relevant" to the rest of my life. You'd be surprised how those little influences change you.
Getting back to my point, if we just convince ourselves that only a small group of people are able to do science, let alone be respected in the field for it, we are doing future science a disservice. For those of you who do have STEM talents, take it from DNLee: people are lucky to have your expertise around, not you being lucky to share it. We need you around and you are valued. We don't care what you look like, where you came from, or even who you love. Just keep being awesome. We need your STEM goodness!
One last thing: Everyone should be encouraging the next generation to take up science fields. Not forcing, mind you. But nudging. It's really the only way we can secure a better, brighter future for ourselves.
Quick list of how ridiculous this response is:
1) It's super personal for someone who never met this person
2) It's racist and sexist in one fell swoop
3) It's certainly not professional
4) It ruins any chance of potentially changing a potential blogger's mind in the future
DNLee actually did a pretty good response about not only why she declined the proposal sent to her and how she felt about the response to her:
DNLee makes some good points. Don't settle because someone decides you should. Figure out what your baselines are for your work. Stick to them.
But she shares a struggle that happens all the time for people in many science fields, and again in minority groups. Although we may like to believe there is, in America there is not a lot of varied representation of people in STEM careers. Most of them are white, most of them are men, and there is a lot of overlap with those two groups. On top of that there is a lot of the public who will freak out if it turns out that it isn't the atypical person who's actually knowledgeable, let alone interested, in anything scientific or mathematical. Does anyone else remember when the internet exploded because it found out the person who runs the I Fucking Love Science page on Facebook is a woman? I do mean people freaked out. Was it the combo of her being a woman who didn't mind cursing on the internet who also really fucking loves science? I don't know but I remember being ashamed not only that people were reacting poorly to it, but that I was surprised a woman ran the site. What the hell was wrong with my head that I assumed that Facebook page was run by a man?
It's a societal thing, and it's a societal thing that is due to get in the way of a better future. We need to have people invest in science, be interested in every scientific field, to help make the future fantastic. We can't be discouraging anyone from the field. For every DNLee who knows her worth, there are a ton more people who've been wrongfully turned away from a field because someone thought they didn't "fit the profile".
Did I ever mention to you guys that ever since junior high, when a teach in eight grade told me I never needed math again, I sabotage myself in my math skill all through college? Those little things make a difference throughout life. I'm not going to make excuses, and I am glad there was a a professor at college that pointed out how ridiculous that whole premise was and did his best to smack me out of it. P.S., random shout out to Robert Rebelein, who despite his not very well updated website was possibly one of the best professors I had the pleasure of working with in my undergraduate career. He treated me like an adult before I realized that's how I should be treated. He let me know if I wanted to be an economist, I could be despite getting a C in my first economics class. I wish I had more people earlier in my life (outside my awesome parents) that told me I could do whatever the hell I wanted with hard work. That I could do math--it wasn't just a guy skill or "not relevant" to the rest of my life. You'd be surprised how those little influences change you.
Getting back to my point, if we just convince ourselves that only a small group of people are able to do science, let alone be respected in the field for it, we are doing future science a disservice. For those of you who do have STEM talents, take it from DNLee: people are lucky to have your expertise around, not you being lucky to share it. We need you around and you are valued. We don't care what you look like, where you came from, or even who you love. Just keep being awesome. We need your STEM goodness!
One last thing: Everyone should be encouraging the next generation to take up science fields. Not forcing, mind you. But nudging. It's really the only way we can secure a better, brighter future for ourselves.
October 8, 2013
In defense of Candy Crush and other casual game
Mystical makes fun of me all the time for playing Candy Crush. I'm not one of those people who pays to get to other levels or shares on Facebook in hopes of advancing, but it's definitely a fun puzzle game. I'm also a big fan of Bejeweled Blitz. Those rare gem bonuses are friggin' hilarious too.
Mystical is always suspect of those games. He finds them not to be "real games" and always teases me for playing them. But they are real fun. They're not anything where I feel like "OH MAN I GOT TO BEAT THIS!" But these games have legitimate appeal, despite being a bit of a Skinner Box.
1. Quick bursts of entertainment
A lot of people love to focus that people these days do not have the time, nor the attention spans, to do things that involve a lot of time. I don't know how true that is, the but trend in America is that quick enjoyment is always appreciated. So it's nice if you are looking to distract yourself while waiting for the doctor, riding the train, or on your lunch break.
2. Thinking without "gamer skill" required.
Everyone likes a puzzle, but with a lot of regular video games, it requires honing skills for years. There is a reason why I loathe platforming in a video game and Mystical doesn't mind it. He has about 15 years of practice on it than me. That with other skills means a lot of video games are building up on what I call "gamer logic", which requires being familiar with how an a-typical game sets up a scenario. With these games, you don't need that. Just pick it up and go and still exercise your brain.
3. "Free" until you're okay with paying.
Sure, it's not as easy to win the levels if you don't pay for more lives or special items. But you don't have to. You have access to over 300 levels of fun by just downloading. And if you do decide to pay money, you're less likely to regret it since you know exactly what you're getting into.
4. Play anytime, anywhere.
Pretty simple--with any mobile game you're going to have that advantage.
5. Well designed puzzles
This isn't like when sudoku got big and every portable device had a version of it available that repeated the same 10 puzzles. Over time the good games will require a little bit of skill, thought and even preparation. It's not simply mindless entertainment. There's strategy!
No, it's not a real video game. That's not my argument. But it's not a wimpy game or a dumb way to pass the time. That's all I ask people to recognize.
P.S. Anyone else stuck on level 181?
Mystical is always suspect of those games. He finds them not to be "real games" and always teases me for playing them. But they are real fun. They're not anything where I feel like "OH MAN I GOT TO BEAT THIS!" But these games have legitimate appeal, despite being a bit of a Skinner Box.
A lot of people love to focus that people these days do not have the time, nor the attention spans, to do things that involve a lot of time. I don't know how true that is, the but trend in America is that quick enjoyment is always appreciated. So it's nice if you are looking to distract yourself while waiting for the doctor, riding the train, or on your lunch break.
2. Thinking without "gamer skill" required.
Everyone likes a puzzle, but with a lot of regular video games, it requires honing skills for years. There is a reason why I loathe platforming in a video game and Mystical doesn't mind it. He has about 15 years of practice on it than me. That with other skills means a lot of video games are building up on what I call "gamer logic", which requires being familiar with how an a-typical game sets up a scenario. With these games, you don't need that. Just pick it up and go and still exercise your brain.
3. "Free" until you're okay with paying.
Sure, it's not as easy to win the levels if you don't pay for more lives or special items. But you don't have to. You have access to over 300 levels of fun by just downloading. And if you do decide to pay money, you're less likely to regret it since you know exactly what you're getting into.
4. Play anytime, anywhere.
Pretty simple--with any mobile game you're going to have that advantage.
5. Well designed puzzles
This isn't like when sudoku got big and every portable device had a version of it available that repeated the same 10 puzzles. Over time the good games will require a little bit of skill, thought and even preparation. It's not simply mindless entertainment. There's strategy!
No, it's not a real video game. That's not my argument. But it's not a wimpy game or a dumb way to pass the time. That's all I ask people to recognize.
P.S. Anyone else stuck on level 181?
October 1, 2013
Nerds in this day and age--an evolution thanks to media expansion.
I know that some of you were thinking I was such a friggin' liar for a post a week but that is still the goal. I even got a new chromebook to help me go back out and blog all the time.
I'm watching Criminal Minds randomly as I start to write this post and it definitely has me thinking. Penelope is the resident "nerd" character, and that has been a growing theme over time right now. Nerd culture in general is now a streamlined thing. Back in the day my mother used to take the train and the bus two hours across Chicago to get her Doctor Who books from England, not knowing what was in stock. She had to stay up at a strange time to watch the latest episode that America got. It was a big deal to her when she went to college that she met someone who went out of their way to knit the Tom Baker era scarf.
Nowadays, not only can you merely just google it and you can get the directions for a great scarf, but BBC America is carrying it and you can watch it on netflix or just rent the DVDs and people will talk about it at the work place (not as much as some other shows, but you're no longer the odd man out). This has grown for a lot of things. I noticed it in college when this professor in one my drama classes was relating to obviously not traditionally nerdy drama kids about how Battlestar Galactica was some of the best modern dramatic pieces out there. That's when I knew--geek culture is becoming mainstream.
It's not everything. Let's not lie to ourselves, it's not like the national pastime is going to become Warhammer. But considering all the movies that are getting redone, all the investment in TV show characters that have geeky habits, and all the mainstream focus on nerd events like comic-con, it's now... not so surprising to say you're a trekkie or that you spend a good amount of your time playing video games. And I can mention pretending to be a vampire on the weekends without people proceeding to ask if I'm in a cult and deciding not to interact with me.
However, I wonder if this really means that geeks are increasing in numbers. Are we? And what does that really mean if we are?
Well i think with the way media works these days, thanks to the impossible greatness of the internet, people are able to find out about things easier than they were before. By the time I was in high school, if you wanted an obscure anime, either you had to have a friend or be in the dubbing circles on the early days of internet forums, or you had to find a place to buy it online and potentially have to know japanese to enjoy it once you received it. And the price was friggin' high! The sad thing is this is when it was just becoming easy for anime exposure. Nowadays there are conventions all over the place, they carry manga in mainstream bookstores, you have Amazon the seller of EVERYTHING, and on top of that you can direct download some of the more popular animes on netflix. Isn't it great living in the future?
This extra exposure to things that others who were not genetically predispositioned to dress up as Beverly Crusher on Halloween two years in a row (that's me, by the way) means that people are no longer surprised by they hobbies that previously had either been hidden from the majority of the public or had been stigmatized by popular culture and individuals who didn't understand nor cared to do the research. I encourage young pen and paper gamers to watch the Tom Hanks classic Mazes and Monsters. This is how our hobby was portrayed. Can you believe that? As much as the internet has its down points, its ability to connect and teach has lessened the stereotypes. Now there are many more avenues for communication and learning, and acceptance is definitely increasing over time.
But another thing I see happening is that there is a lot more "casual nerding" going on. There are people who may be interested in one sci-fi series, but can't seem to dig the whole Asimov or LeGuin library. There are people who really like playing Mass Effect but then would never consider the rest of Bioware's franchises or even other games like mass effect. There are people like me who do like a really good Doctor Who episode, but don't hunker down to watch the entirety of the series or feel it even necessary to appreciate it. Possibly because the need of extreme interest is low thanks to media, we're getting more people who like geeky pursuits but don't love them the same way the smaller geek culture did before. If you don't have to an hour and a half bus ride to get that book you've been waiting for, it's probably easier to love the series and not be a die-hard.
And this is part of the reason I feel like writing this whole long rant today. Living in the future means we are more exposed to these great hobbies and genres that have now experienced more time in the limelight. It's fantastic. As much as I haven't read or seen Game of Thrones (I swear to god I'll read the books don't judge me) I'm happy that we have a fantasy series outside of Tolkien's world that is now part of popular culture. I'm elated that people are getting interested in the philosophical quandries that sci-fi explores in new stories. I have to stop myself from doing a joyful dance when I went into a Barnes and Noble and saw they were selling Settlers of Catan and Pandemic. It's almost as if we're in a miniature nerd renaissance.
But with that there are some drawbacks. Part of the reason I used to love sci-fi is that I found that it was the better composed art forms. Tighter, more thoughtful writing was prevalent. Things were thought through. But the more I look back, the more I realize that this was due to my mother's really good taste in art all around. There are really bad versions of any traditionally nerdy pursuit out there, and thanks to living in the future, that has also spread around. I am not going to pretend I know what all of them are, and in fact I'm not going to list any for fear of nerd rage. Feel free to leave it in the comments. But we all know what we're talking about. This is why we're always wary of any story with lizard men--it doesn't automatically mean it's bad, but it does mean there is a higher probability of crap in that story.
Now that these nerd loves are front and center, it means that there is a higher probability that the "normal consumer" of certain medias are going to be more highly exposed to the filth. Noticed how many comic book movies are receiving the sequel treatment that ruined many a franchise before. Old sci-fi movies are getting redone and forgetting why those stories were important in the first place. One example that I hate picking on but I'm going to anyway is Star Trek: Into Darkness. J.J. Abrahms makes great movies. They're exciting and riveting and you get sucked in the theater and you forget that you drank a bucket worth of lemonade and need to pee for the last hour of the film. He makes great films. I'm never going to argue that Into Darkness was a bad movie. But I will argue is that Into Darkness was bad Star Trek. We're talking about a series that was known for thoughtful questions of humanity that were answered in hour-long shows. Not every episode does that, but the pursuits of those questions are always present. Those questions were not fully defined or explored in Into Darkness. In fact, I would argue that Into Darkness has the opposite problem that the very first Star Trek movie had. Star Trek: The Motion Picture was a great question about the reach of humanity in space and its affects that was clouded with bad writing and editing. Star Trek: Into Darkness was a very well done movie that never touched anything that would make the audience think after they left the theater.
On top of the normal things that will affect any medium that becomes part of pop culture, you now also have nerds becoming more prevalent as characters in other stories, such as Penelope in Criminal Minds. Her portrayl is okay, although it does totally fall into the stereotypical problems that any hacker schematics do in any TV show or movie (no, hacking isn't just a bunch of fast code typing, it doesn't work quite like that). But let's take a look at The Big Bang Theory. I'm officially going to say this: fuck that show. What the internet did to help get away from stereotypes that associate with nerds, i.e. the whole loner persona who has trouble communicating with people and are so out of the loop they can use their personality to collect disability, The Big Bang Theory brought back in full force. There are geeky people of all different walks, and let me tell you I've been a loyal fan of Star Trek while still knowing how to dress fashionably and not be socially awkward. I could make a whole blog post about how we have to stop treating socially awkward like it's a subset of cute, but then I may have to do research into The New Girl and I'm not feeling that.
Finally, there is the in-fighting. I've posted about this before, where there is a subset of nerds judging other nerds about not being geeky enough. Female cosplayers do get the largest brunt of it but it happens all over the place. People who don't know all the lore judging people they believe know less of the lore for their beloved series. People who think that the influx of women in certain fields is entirely superficial. People who feel you have to prove yourself to them before you can join their games. SERIOUSLY GUYS! There should not be a test on whether or not you're a nerd! Why would we be so exclusive? Who benefits from that? Seriously, so many other groups have shot themselves in the foot from in-fighting, do we want to join those ranks because someone who wants to join your Star Trek marathons doesn't fluently speak Klingon? Are we seriously going to do this?
As you can see, there are so many benefits to this new nerd era we're living in right now, but also some set backs. Some of the things that I hope all of the geek-spheres take advantage of is the ability to expose more people to the love of their hobbies. For example, my friend David Zoltan, the man who introduced me to the LARP hobby I've loved, is now opening up Geek Bar Chicago thanks to the magic of kickstarter. I don't know how successful this could've been without the magic of living in the future. I think if we invest in spreading the word and accessibility, we can teach the masses why we've loved these hobbies all this time, and invite them into what we invested those long bus rides across town for. That will help get rid of the issues with misrepresentation and, potentially, with poor quality nerd productions. We just have to show everyone not only what we like, but why we like it.
As a side note, there's a part of me that likes bringing good sci-fi to the forefront. Star Trek is definitely a big part of the reason why NASA exists in the first place. So many genius people were inspired by it. Maybe we can get that again in hope that it wil inspire the next generation for us to a better future, where maybe NASA will no longer be considered non-essential. Because in the long run, those hopes that widened our eyes when we participated in all of these things are actually help make us into people who strive to problem-solve, discover and create in the future. That would be the best result of this mini renaissance, don't you think?
I'm watching Criminal Minds randomly as I start to write this post and it definitely has me thinking. Penelope is the resident "nerd" character, and that has been a growing theme over time right now. Nerd culture in general is now a streamlined thing. Back in the day my mother used to take the train and the bus two hours across Chicago to get her Doctor Who books from England, not knowing what was in stock. She had to stay up at a strange time to watch the latest episode that America got. It was a big deal to her when she went to college that she met someone who went out of their way to knit the Tom Baker era scarf.
Nowadays, not only can you merely just google it and you can get the directions for a great scarf, but BBC America is carrying it and you can watch it on netflix or just rent the DVDs and people will talk about it at the work place (not as much as some other shows, but you're no longer the odd man out). This has grown for a lot of things. I noticed it in college when this professor in one my drama classes was relating to obviously not traditionally nerdy drama kids about how Battlestar Galactica was some of the best modern dramatic pieces out there. That's when I knew--geek culture is becoming mainstream.
It's not everything. Let's not lie to ourselves, it's not like the national pastime is going to become Warhammer. But considering all the movies that are getting redone, all the investment in TV show characters that have geeky habits, and all the mainstream focus on nerd events like comic-con, it's now... not so surprising to say you're a trekkie or that you spend a good amount of your time playing video games. And I can mention pretending to be a vampire on the weekends without people proceeding to ask if I'm in a cult and deciding not to interact with me.
However, I wonder if this really means that geeks are increasing in numbers. Are we? And what does that really mean if we are?
Well i think with the way media works these days, thanks to the impossible greatness of the internet, people are able to find out about things easier than they were before. By the time I was in high school, if you wanted an obscure anime, either you had to have a friend or be in the dubbing circles on the early days of internet forums, or you had to find a place to buy it online and potentially have to know japanese to enjoy it once you received it. And the price was friggin' high! The sad thing is this is when it was just becoming easy for anime exposure. Nowadays there are conventions all over the place, they carry manga in mainstream bookstores, you have Amazon the seller of EVERYTHING, and on top of that you can direct download some of the more popular animes on netflix. Isn't it great living in the future?
This extra exposure to things that others who were not genetically predispositioned to dress up as Beverly Crusher on Halloween two years in a row (that's me, by the way) means that people are no longer surprised by they hobbies that previously had either been hidden from the majority of the public or had been stigmatized by popular culture and individuals who didn't understand nor cared to do the research. I encourage young pen and paper gamers to watch the Tom Hanks classic Mazes and Monsters. This is how our hobby was portrayed. Can you believe that? As much as the internet has its down points, its ability to connect and teach has lessened the stereotypes. Now there are many more avenues for communication and learning, and acceptance is definitely increasing over time.
But another thing I see happening is that there is a lot more "casual nerding" going on. There are people who may be interested in one sci-fi series, but can't seem to dig the whole Asimov or LeGuin library. There are people who really like playing Mass Effect but then would never consider the rest of Bioware's franchises or even other games like mass effect. There are people like me who do like a really good Doctor Who episode, but don't hunker down to watch the entirety of the series or feel it even necessary to appreciate it. Possibly because the need of extreme interest is low thanks to media, we're getting more people who like geeky pursuits but don't love them the same way the smaller geek culture did before. If you don't have to an hour and a half bus ride to get that book you've been waiting for, it's probably easier to love the series and not be a die-hard.
And this is part of the reason I feel like writing this whole long rant today. Living in the future means we are more exposed to these great hobbies and genres that have now experienced more time in the limelight. It's fantastic. As much as I haven't read or seen Game of Thrones (I swear to god I'll read the books don't judge me) I'm happy that we have a fantasy series outside of Tolkien's world that is now part of popular culture. I'm elated that people are getting interested in the philosophical quandries that sci-fi explores in new stories. I have to stop myself from doing a joyful dance when I went into a Barnes and Noble and saw they were selling Settlers of Catan and Pandemic. It's almost as if we're in a miniature nerd renaissance.
But with that there are some drawbacks. Part of the reason I used to love sci-fi is that I found that it was the better composed art forms. Tighter, more thoughtful writing was prevalent. Things were thought through. But the more I look back, the more I realize that this was due to my mother's really good taste in art all around. There are really bad versions of any traditionally nerdy pursuit out there, and thanks to living in the future, that has also spread around. I am not going to pretend I know what all of them are, and in fact I'm not going to list any for fear of nerd rage. Feel free to leave it in the comments. But we all know what we're talking about. This is why we're always wary of any story with lizard men--it doesn't automatically mean it's bad, but it does mean there is a higher probability of crap in that story.
Now that these nerd loves are front and center, it means that there is a higher probability that the "normal consumer" of certain medias are going to be more highly exposed to the filth. Noticed how many comic book movies are receiving the sequel treatment that ruined many a franchise before. Old sci-fi movies are getting redone and forgetting why those stories were important in the first place. One example that I hate picking on but I'm going to anyway is Star Trek: Into Darkness. J.J. Abrahms makes great movies. They're exciting and riveting and you get sucked in the theater and you forget that you drank a bucket worth of lemonade and need to pee for the last hour of the film. He makes great films. I'm never going to argue that Into Darkness was a bad movie. But I will argue is that Into Darkness was bad Star Trek. We're talking about a series that was known for thoughtful questions of humanity that were answered in hour-long shows. Not every episode does that, but the pursuits of those questions are always present. Those questions were not fully defined or explored in Into Darkness. In fact, I would argue that Into Darkness has the opposite problem that the very first Star Trek movie had. Star Trek: The Motion Picture was a great question about the reach of humanity in space and its affects that was clouded with bad writing and editing. Star Trek: Into Darkness was a very well done movie that never touched anything that would make the audience think after they left the theater.
On top of the normal things that will affect any medium that becomes part of pop culture, you now also have nerds becoming more prevalent as characters in other stories, such as Penelope in Criminal Minds. Her portrayl is okay, although it does totally fall into the stereotypical problems that any hacker schematics do in any TV show or movie (no, hacking isn't just a bunch of fast code typing, it doesn't work quite like that). But let's take a look at The Big Bang Theory. I'm officially going to say this: fuck that show. What the internet did to help get away from stereotypes that associate with nerds, i.e. the whole loner persona who has trouble communicating with people and are so out of the loop they can use their personality to collect disability, The Big Bang Theory brought back in full force. There are geeky people of all different walks, and let me tell you I've been a loyal fan of Star Trek while still knowing how to dress fashionably and not be socially awkward. I could make a whole blog post about how we have to stop treating socially awkward like it's a subset of cute, but then I may have to do research into The New Girl and I'm not feeling that.
Finally, there is the in-fighting. I've posted about this before, where there is a subset of nerds judging other nerds about not being geeky enough. Female cosplayers do get the largest brunt of it but it happens all over the place. People who don't know all the lore judging people they believe know less of the lore for their beloved series. People who think that the influx of women in certain fields is entirely superficial. People who feel you have to prove yourself to them before you can join their games. SERIOUSLY GUYS! There should not be a test on whether or not you're a nerd! Why would we be so exclusive? Who benefits from that? Seriously, so many other groups have shot themselves in the foot from in-fighting, do we want to join those ranks because someone who wants to join your Star Trek marathons doesn't fluently speak Klingon? Are we seriously going to do this?
As you can see, there are so many benefits to this new nerd era we're living in right now, but also some set backs. Some of the things that I hope all of the geek-spheres take advantage of is the ability to expose more people to the love of their hobbies. For example, my friend David Zoltan, the man who introduced me to the LARP hobby I've loved, is now opening up Geek Bar Chicago thanks to the magic of kickstarter. I don't know how successful this could've been without the magic of living in the future. I think if we invest in spreading the word and accessibility, we can teach the masses why we've loved these hobbies all this time, and invite them into what we invested those long bus rides across town for. That will help get rid of the issues with misrepresentation and, potentially, with poor quality nerd productions. We just have to show everyone not only what we like, but why we like it.
As a side note, there's a part of me that likes bringing good sci-fi to the forefront. Star Trek is definitely a big part of the reason why NASA exists in the first place. So many genius people were inspired by it. Maybe we can get that again in hope that it wil inspire the next generation for us to a better future, where maybe NASA will no longer be considered non-essential. Because in the long run, those hopes that widened our eyes when we participated in all of these things are actually help make us into people who strive to problem-solve, discover and create in the future. That would be the best result of this mini renaissance, don't you think?
September 5, 2013
It can be so easy...
To lose yourself in the middle of a very s#!$ty job.
I work in a business that involves a lot of energy during the day, so yes, it can be hard to write something once a week in the pursuit of becoming a legit writer. But if the expectations are reasonable, an entry a week shouldn't be so draining on top of you normal life, especially when you don't have any rug-rats to distract and a super supportive boyfriend.
But then you find yourself in this job that essentially stole your energy because of unreasonable expectations and pressures from above.
Long story short, next week Monday I am starting a new job, still leasing, and I am hoping I'll be able to continue with blogging soon so I can tell everyone my nerd-ventures. The plan is that I will work on posting one thoughtful entry once a week for your enjoyment.
It's going to take a while to get back to having a serious following but I look forward to working hard at it. See you all next week.
I work in a business that involves a lot of energy during the day, so yes, it can be hard to write something once a week in the pursuit of becoming a legit writer. But if the expectations are reasonable, an entry a week shouldn't be so draining on top of you normal life, especially when you don't have any rug-rats to distract and a super supportive boyfriend.
But then you find yourself in this job that essentially stole your energy because of unreasonable expectations and pressures from above.
Long story short, next week Monday I am starting a new job, still leasing, and I am hoping I'll be able to continue with blogging soon so I can tell everyone my nerd-ventures. The plan is that I will work on posting one thoughtful entry once a week for your enjoyment.
It's going to take a while to get back to having a serious following but I look forward to working hard at it. See you all next week.
April 1, 2013
The Walking Dead needs some new writers
Dear producers of The Walking Dead,
You have got to get a better writing staff.
You have got to get a better writing staff.
[For those of you reading this not a producer, FYI there are WALKING DEAD SEASON THREE SPOILERS AHEAD]
Season Two obviously dragged on, but the first half of season three was showing us that all bets were off and that there will be high paced action. It delivered a new dangerous setting, new characters, and even a new danger--other people.
I should've known that when the second black guy in a row dies only to be replaced by a new black character, things were only going to get worse. (And no, I definitely wasn't the only one who noticed that.)
I don't know what it is, but your minority and female character writing is hit or miss. Michonne is still awesome, Carol has grown incredibly, Maggie is a solid part of the front line. But what the hell did you think you could with Lori after you dragged on the love triangle through half that previous season like a roadkill stuck on the grill of a truck? Of course you had to kill her off. There was no redemption possible with a character as inconsistent as Lori.
And now you've gone and done the same thing to Andrea. She got hypnotized by Governor dick and only in the second to last episode in the season does she realize that this dude has serious issues. Oh my god, hasn't she figured out she's attracted to the crazies? Forget the tanks full of heads or the locked up zombie daughter or the farming and entertainment of keeping walkers in a town you promised to protect or lying to you about attacking your friends... but you find a make-shift torture chair that Milton decided to show you and now suddenly you want to leave? You couldn't trust the woman who saved your life multiple times when she told you that the place is shady? This could've been a more captivating story of friends with different survival structures, but instead you made Andrea a confused symbol of whatever the hell the writer wanted to exemplify for 10 minutes of the episode. I did not mourn her death because even in death, she needlessly hesitated over some bullshit!
My conclusion is not that you can't write female characters, you just don't know who to write conflicted characters well. Ever. Look at Rick's wavering in the second and third season, which is suppose to show how hard it is for him to be good. NO IT'S NOT! It's just when he thinks more than five seconds is when people die, but when he uses his conscious do things work out they way they should for his group. Well, at least this season, but let's not talk about how you tried to present Shane as crazy in season two when he was just angry and adaptive to his environment.
Did your writers not know what to do with all these new characters? Why introduce the holed-up inmates if you end up killing ALL of them? Why only have Tyreese for four episodes of the season? Why wait until right before the finale to have us empathize with the Governor's henchmen? Why develop Milton that late on as well? Gah! Too many whys that only distance me from the show and it's world, not make me any more interested.
This finale definitely left me as a fan on a down note. There was a lot of wasted potential, especially for those of us who actually read the goddamn comic. Below I'm going to list everything that disappointed me, partly as a fan and partly as a writer.
-Tyreese and Sasha were ridiculously under-utilized. We need their moral sanity to balance the crazy Rick bought to the table. Herschel is more spiritual, Tyreese is more practical. More of him and Sasha.
-Even with the Governor surprising everyone, he cannot gun down twenty people by himself! Especially when half of them have guns!
-It was way too late to introduce the Carl rebellion subplot. Should've done that episodes ago, even if it won't blow up until next season
-Am I really suppose to believe there were enough people who just decided to immigrate from Woodbury with the enemy they were told to avoid?
-HOLY CRAP YOU LEAD US TO BELIEVE SHIT WAS GOING DOWN AND WE ONLY GOT FIVE MINUTES OF ACTUAL CONFLICT?!?!?!?!
What a cop-out. And now that Rick has even more people to be responsible for, how the hell are we going to start next season? They're stuck in the jail with these children and old fogies to protect now? Rick is suddenly just letting any old person into the group? As much as Carl is on the path to being a murderous dick he has a point--you can't just trust people these days anymore. So we're going to let half a town of strangers in a compound that you can't secure? And now others are going to think you're going to have open arms to accept them? Word is going to fucking spread and you know it, you dumbasses.
I'm afraid next season, I may find myself not giving a shit. I'll probably still watch it because it's zombies, and if zombies are involved I'm interested. But I imagine instead of one in thousands, I'll be one in dozens. Until you get some writers who can do something inspiring with this setting. Because right now, you're story is begging for an actual story to tell.
Sincerely
d20 Sapphire
P.S. What would I write to save you? Nuh-uh, no freebies. Let's sign a contract and I'll give you some pointers. The only tip you're getting is that if you haven't read World War Z already, you should and be ashamed that it took you this long.
February 27, 2013
Indie Game Wednesdays--You Will Be Missed
For the last few months I was gaming with a great group of guys in Chicago which expanded my gaming knowledge. Now I have a promotion starting Friday and I don't know if my schedule will align with typical gaming on weeknights, since right now I don't live that close to the city. But I would like to thank the guys for introducing me to some great games, some of which include:
Apocalypse World: First game I played with them, and I knew I was in for a great time. The system is simple and flexible, and we were able to create RIDICULOUS characters that had fantastic interactions. I suggest this game to anyone who's interested in something a little of the standard path.
InSpectres: Only did a one shot, but having an rpg about managing a spy franchise is fun and new. Also, using confessionals as a saving grace in a pinch is a fantastic mechanic.
Final Girl: Playing multiple characters in a horror story to see who may have a chance to be the final survivor is something so much more exciting (and hilarious) to play than it sounds, and it already sounds awesome!
Everything is Dolphins: A college friend sent this to me (long story) and the group was very willing to try. Simple but easy to have a light-hearted fun time, because eff it, you're all dolphins!
And so many more I'm not thinking about right now but were super fun (guys if you read this please add if you like!).
So although I am sure I shall game with them again, thank you guys for introducing me to these fantastic games. I don't think I would have ever had a chance to try out any of the things we played without your help.
Apocalypse World: First game I played with them, and I knew I was in for a great time. The system is simple and flexible, and we were able to create RIDICULOUS characters that had fantastic interactions. I suggest this game to anyone who's interested in something a little of the standard path.
InSpectres: Only did a one shot, but having an rpg about managing a spy franchise is fun and new. Also, using confessionals as a saving grace in a pinch is a fantastic mechanic.
Final Girl: Playing multiple characters in a horror story to see who may have a chance to be the final survivor is something so much more exciting (and hilarious) to play than it sounds, and it already sounds awesome!
Everything is Dolphins: A college friend sent this to me (long story) and the group was very willing to try. Simple but easy to have a light-hearted fun time, because eff it, you're all dolphins!
And so many more I'm not thinking about right now but were super fun (guys if you read this please add if you like!).
So although I am sure I shall game with them again, thank you guys for introducing me to these fantastic games. I don't think I would have ever had a chance to try out any of the things we played without your help.
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